When I remember You on my bed, I meditate on You in the night watches, For You have been my help, And in the shadow of Your wings I sing for joy. My soul clings to You; Your right hand upholds me.
-Psalms 63:6-8 NASB
I don’t know about you, but every so often I wake up with a completely wrong attitude. I roll out of bed, and even before my feet hit the floor, I just know it’s going to be a bad day. As I stumble to the shower my heart is already grumbling about all the tasks I know I have to get done, and begrudgingly I plan out the day. This, of course, sets the ball rolling into a downhill slope of impending DOOM! Okay, maybe I am a bit dramatic at times, (my husband says that that is absolutely and totally not true) but that bad attitude definitely doesn’t prepare me to prosper, or bode very well for my poor husband and two children. On these days it seems I complain more, I’m snippy, and I just generally am not fun to be around. I know hard to believe right! (I say this in jest because the Lord knows I am far from perfect.)
This morning was one of those morning and I didn’t disappoint! Let’s just say my gracious and amazing husband had his hands full. When I finally snapped out of it, or should I say when I finally listened to that still, small voice say “What are you doing my child?” that is when I stopped and said, “Lord you know what, I don’t know. Why am I so grumpy and agitated, when I should be filled with your Joy?”
The Lord answered, “It’s because you forgot about our relationship this morning.” Well that hit me like a ton of bricks. He, as always, was right. (Him being God and all) I did forget about Him. I knew as soon as I woke up I needed something supernatural to make it through this day, but I wasn’t humble. Instead of stopping right there and seeking Him, I just got up and started the day on my own. I thought if I planned out my day, I’d get through it and when MY plan didn’t pan out I wasn’t happy about it. I said, “I’ll just push through and if anyone gets in my way I’ll let them know it!”
But God had other plans. He told me, “The person in the way is you.” God is a loving and merciful God who instructs us, not condemns us, and sometime we need Him to call us out. I’m glad He does because I sure needed it. He tells us in His Word how we can do better. He calls us to a life of holiness, and He upholds us when we seek Him whole-heartedly. He reminds us to cling to Him so that we might find joy in the shadow of His wings. When we remember this, draw closer to Him, seek Him First, and work on our relationship with God, that is where we can truly find wonderful joy!
You are an awesome and mighty God! We thank you for Your loving reminders to get our hearts right, and Your mercy and grace when we get it wrong. Please help us to always remember to draw close in our relationship with You and walk in Your ways which are perfect. We thank You for the wonderful joy we find in You.